it's the first new moon of 2002. i'm capricorn wishing for new light, new discipline, new resolve. the past few days i've worked on revising the new play. i like the new ending so much better. it feels right. i just wish i could find the best words to write the letter of introduction to the theatre company i'm sending it off to. enough deliberation! it's going in the post on monday even if it is still a bit rough in certain places. jump in. sink or swim. the i-ching says, bite through obstacles, accomplish much with small steps.
t.d. announced that he's leaving the college this spring. my heart sank. paula says it's all for the best. yesterday at the curriculum meeting, i pointed out to him that we were both wearing the same style of kenneth cole shoes. he laughed. we dined together, rode back home to chicago and talked about writing, poetry, theatre, traveling. oh my. he touched my inner thigh. my inner child. stevie nicks' last song on trouble in shangri-la goes: "am i happy yes i am .. do i know you love me now, yes i do. . .do i know you cannot stay . . .yes i do . . .all about love . ."
next week i hope to re-connect with jorge. i sort of miss him. sort of. he hasn't fully materialized in my consciousness. granted i've been putting him off, but we'll meet i know. next thursday i meet amelia to see the william kentridge exhibit at the mca and then friday it's a french dinner with mary and ellen and cocteau's beauty and the beast. this year is all about cultural events and i'm planning on scooping up as much as i can. speaking of culture, i suggested to abra that we connect this summer in paris, and instead of a trek to vienna, i proposed a trip to fez or casablanca. i want to roam again. i want to untangle, unravel, whirl-about. all about love.
